Wednesday

Alright well today was a bit ridiculous. I had to get up to work at 6:30 and be at work at 8. So I thought I was only gonna have to work until 4pm BUTTTTT I was clearly wrong. I had originally planned to get home around 5pm and do Legs and Back X on P90X but I ended up working until 10pm. 
SO, here’s my calorie intake today. Didn’t eat a whole lot. And I imagine I burned quite a bit working today. (I work at an amusement park)

Breakfast:
Fiber One Bar = 150 cal
Lunch:
Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich = 350 (I wasn’t sure)
Granola Thin = 80
Green Tea (Sobe) = 240
Dinner:
Nope. I got home too late. I don’t eat past 8pm. 

Total Calories: 820
Will someone tell me if this is okay? I just feel so guilty for not doing a workout today. :/ 

I would call this a successful before and after picture. The picture on the left was me last summer, obviously not too cute. The picture on the right is of me now. I’ve lost nearly 40 pounds and still going strong (kind of). I’m so happy and look SO different. It’s lovely!

So my eating was fine today. I actually hit 100g of protein and was at about 1000 calories, leaving 100-200 for some almonds after work.

But when I got to work, my boss asked me if I liked sweet things or coffee. I answered honestly and said to both. She then asked if I ate Tim Hortons or Cold Stone and I said that I hadn’t in years, I just drink Tim Hortons coffee.

So here’s what she had me eat: timbits, brownie bits, a glazed cinnamon bun, and sample every ice cream flavor plus tons of combinations so I could tell customers about them. She made me an ice cream for the job well done as well.

I feel awful right now. My head hurts, my stomach hurts, I feel like a little kid who went overboard on Halloween.

I mean, I feel stupid and like this is just a white girl problems post. OH NO, I HAD TO EAT FOOD.

But I guess I hope that this will make my shifts easier. Every time I reach for a doughnut, I’ll think about how shitty I feel now.

I think I’ll rest tomorrow or go to yoga, depending on what time I wake up. Either way, I need to chill the fuck out. I have a super healthy day planned for tomorrow to try to make up for this. Hint: it involved 100g of protein.

i was craving a Good Humor icecream sandwich . i really was .
instead , i settled for an apple . cut & cored it since my braces get in the way .
its lasting longer , is more filling , & sure as hell healthier :]
one healthier choice is better than none at all . 

I’m taking drastic steps in my diet. 

• I’m cutting out meat. No pork, beef, or chicken. But I’ll still eat seafood. If anything, I’ll replace missing protein with tofu and fish.
• I’m not eating out at all. I’m on a strict diet of homemade goods only.
• Strictly tea and water, and at massive amounts.
• The only grain products I’ll consume are oatmeal or whole wheat bread, and it’s only once a day.
• Typically fruits and steamed vegetables.
• To curve my sweet tooth, occasional yogurt.

It sounds healthy, I’m not starving myself at all.  I’m receiving the nutrients I need. As long as I continue with the daily workouts and stay hydrated, it sounds like a good diet to stick to.  I know I’ll have cravings for junk foods sometimes, but I think I can last until November without it if not longer.  You don’t need it, but merely want it.  In the end, I’ll benefit from this.

Some Diabetes Diet Tips:

You do need sugar in your system, even as a diabetic; however you want to be sure it is not excessive. Look for foods that help in the production or processing of the insulin hormone. It should help well enough.You need a regulation of sugar intake in your diabetes diet. Don’t take the raw types, but the type that is cleverly embedded in your food so that the glucose can get into your blood. That should be safe enough. I do suggest that you pick up the proteins, though.You need to get creative, Friend. Diabetes implies that you may not…

Fits with the things I’ve said in previous posts.

To run when your on your period… It Takes Will, Passion, and Pain. I dont care what you throw...

I weighed myself and I am 94.5lbs :).

I am getting closer to the bones I want.

Food:1540 calories

Exercise:

It was a “try out all the cardio machines you’ve never used!” which proved to be pretty flippin’ unpleasant.

10 Minutes Elliptical

10 Minutes Rowing (thought it was good for arms. OMG quads!)

10 Minutes Bike (the kind they use for Spinning. Uh, didn’t know there were gears and adjustable heights. Much better after I fixed that, but not great)

10 Minutes “Cardio Wave” (lol wtf? I felt ridiculous, but it was the most intense part of it all)

5 Minutes “climby/running” thing. I couldn’t do more than that. It was the rotten cherry on top of a shit sundae at that point.

15 Minutes Elliptical

Total: 60 minutes, (and I’m counting the Cardio Wave and Climby Thing as ‘hiking carrying less than 10 lbs on SparkPeople, fyi), estimated caloric burn of: 980.

Oh, and to show that if you really exercise, you don’t walk out of the gym looking as much like a barbie as when you got there (I’m looking at you, Sorostitutes):

(dude, I thought I looked pretty decent for having done an hour, but now that I’ve had a shower, I’d say this looks like I got pretty wrecked. Ew! LOL)

Goodnight!

Going out with friends completely killed my “no junk food” thing. Had pizza, milkshake,...

Thank you so much!! It is actually inspirational to be told you’re inspirational, it feels great to be recognized by other people. You should keep in mind that I don’t follow the ABC diet strictly, I just use it as to know what intake to aim for each day. Stay strong and good luck, sweetie! xx

I did really badly today, went out to eat and I didn’t realize what I was eating was so bad. I’m going to do everything perfectly for the rest of the week.

Calorie Intake: 2061

Calorie Output: 2195

Net Calories: -134

Long time eh? So my progress is going terribly! I’m still only 131lbs!!! Can someone plz tell me what I might be doing wrong???

The one I wore to prom my junior year fit pretty comfortably, which was a surprise. When I wore it to prom, I felt sick after 45 minutes. It was a WAY-too-big size 14, but I loved the dress, so we got it and had it taken in a ton. Either we had it taken in too much or I put on a few pounds by the time I wore it, because I could barely breathe in the damn thing. Now it fits around my chest perfectly, but it’s much too loose at the waist, and I remember it being very tight all the way down that night. Huzzah.

The weird strappy-back number I wore to winter formal sophomore year was definitely too loose. I tightened the straps as much as I could but nothing could make the torso fit properly without sliding around.

The black, zipper-less, short, stretchy dress I wore to winter formal senior year fit the best. I probably only weighed about three pounds more than I do right now when I wore that one. The fact that it stretches rather than zips definitely changes how it fits, too.

My mom showed me my freshman yearbook picture today and holy cow, my face was so fat. Even in junior prom pictures, when I thought at the time that I was at a pretty ideal weight, my face looked really fat compared to how it is now.

It’s nice to see those little non-scale victories. (:

Breakfast: 

• Jimmy Dean Turkey Sausage and Egg D-Light bowl: 230 calories

Lunch:

• Gardein Burgundy Trio: 360 calories

Dinner:

• Chicken breast cooked in Soy Vey: 203 calories
• Organic brown rice: 78 calories
• Green Giant Just For One broccoli and cheese sauce (3/4 package): 30 calories

Snack:

• Green tea: 0 calories
• 90 Calorie Peanut Butter Chewy Bar: …. 90 calories
• Green Giant Just For One broccoli and cheese sauce (3/4 package): 40 calories
• Classic Zone Perfect Bar, fudge graham: 210 calories
• Green tea: 0 calories

Total: 1241 calories

Exercise: 

• Curves: 550 calories
• Walking: 135 calories

Total net calories: 556

Though surely it will go fast if that’s the case, right?

I have to go to a bridesmaid hair trial on my lunch, so I literally had to make up a sundae to go so I can eat it whilst I’m there.

Breakfast:

2 Quorn sausages (free)

3 slices unsmoked bacon medallions (free)

baked beans & scrambled eggs (free)

green tea (free)

Lunch:

42g crunchy bran (HEX B)

Onken mango & apple fat free yoghurt (free)

banana (super free)

honey & peanut butter (5.5 syns)

Snacks:

1 tub of mango (super free)

2 apples (super free)

So the 120 project is underway! And according to the scale, I’m down seven pounds! Success! I haven’t felt this good about myself in quite awhile. I still have a ways to go, for sure, but if I can keep this up, I’ll meet my goal by August for sure! =]

Tonight was seriously one of my most favorite nights of the summer. I’ve definitely got some writing material (whether it’s gonna be a vignette or a poem, I have yet to decide) so I don’t want to write about it right now and use up all my words. But it was awesome. And I’m smiling. Totally content. Life is good.

So its a full week since I started my weight loss adventure.

Overall I feel I have done well- I’ve stuck to it for once at least!

I’ve not done any excercise this week apart from my usual zumba class and I went for an hours stroll in the park saturday. This week I want to introduce the exercise as I think I can control my hunger a bit better now

SW 11st 6.5 

CW 11st 2.75 (that’s a loss of 3.75lb!!! woohooo!) I’m really pleased with that! I want to try and match it agin this week with the introduction of exercise or at least start to see a change in my body.

GW 9st 

I took photos again and there really is no difference apart from a little on my tummy from the side - I will post pics maybe every 4 weeks or when there is a notable difference

my height is 5’3”

arm 32cm, 32cm

thigh 64cm, 63.6cm

tummy 99cm, 96cm

waist 81cm, 80cm

hips 108cm, 108cm

Even though my pictures down really show much difference, I have lost a few cm here and there, yey!

How tall are you? Do you like your height?

I am 5’4. I don’t mind my height, I’m kind of average. But I wouldn’t pass up the oportunity to be taller if someone asked me :’)

Going out with friends completely killed my “no junk food” thing. Had pizza, milkshake, and iced tea. But thats quite alright, cause we walked around town all night & played soccer at 1am. I’ve missed them so much. I haven’t seen Lindsay in a year, and Vito and John since November. Also got to see my art teacher and Steveeeeen. Who I haven’t seen in a year as well. I’m making the best of this summer before everyone goes back to college again. It was a good night of shenanigans. I’m so sore now. Plus side, I went out and bought a soccer ball.. so I can go out and kick that around when I want exercise. :)

HCG day 4 (part 2)

I see a lot of posts about how “when I lose weight, I’m gonna shit sprinkles and rainbows!” Or, “When I lose weight, I’m gonna be the girl everyone loves~”

Wrong!

If you’re boring fat, you’re boring skinny. If you’re depressed fat, you’ll be depressed skinny (you might get the “weight loss high,” but it fades real fucking fast). A lot of these have more to do with confidence than weight. Fixing the outside will not fix whatever is going on in the inside. If you think losing 50 pounds is going to make you the bell of the god damn ball, you have one empty life. Nothing in your life should be based simply on physical appearance. If people don’t want to be around you because you’re not “hot” enough, you don’t need to be around those people. You can be loved at whatever size you are, if that’s a size 2, good for you, a size 20, go for it. And stop delaying living your life until you get this magical damn size. Don’t wait to dress how you want until you a certain size. DO IT NOW.

Women have many varied body types. We can’t all be like the women in the magazines because they have a specific body type. You have to work, and love, what you have. You can be cute fat and you can be an ugly ass munch skinny. Stop trying to make “fat” and “skinny” synonyms for “bad” and “good.” They’re descriptive words about a body type, not someone’s personality. SO KNOCK IT OFF.

Alright, I’m not sure how this works, but I’m going to try a daily thing..? Calories.. Workout..ect.

It's amazing when clothing fits properly instead of being sausaged into things!

and DAMN. does that hurt your ass. I need to stretch >:/ I’ll probably take a walk tonight, or go to the YMCA or something. Hoo-rah! I can’t wait until I get down to 200 ibs. I’m going to piss myself when I do :)

Misconception: This creamy spread is an indulgence best enjoyed occasionally because it’s high in fat and calories.

Why it’s good for you:At least five major studies confirm that eating peanuts can lower risk for coronary heart disease. So it’s no leap to think that peanut butter confers the same benefits. “Suffice it to say that eating peanut butter or peanuts has been associated with lower total cholesterol, lower ldl or ‘bad’ cholesterol, and lower triglycerides, all of which are associated with lower cardiovascular disease risk,” says Richard Mattes, Ph.D., R.D., a professor of nutrition at Purdue University.

My scale is european, i was exactly 52.0 kilos which is 114.6 pounds and my BMI is now 18.5!!!

Words fail to express my joy

Breakfast:

1 caramel snack a jack cracker (51)

Lunch:

Weight Watchers Lemon and chicken risotto (331)

Dinner:

2 fried eggs on bread with half an avocado and 2 teaspoons of peanut butter (665)

Snacks:

1 spoon of Branston Pickle with 1 small apple and a small amount of cheddar cheese (145)

Total approx: 1192 calories.

My dinner today wasn’t very healthy and I have food regret now! I am going to try and do an aerobics work out later but I have so much work to do I am not sure I will have the time :(

http://www.topshop.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?beginIndex=0&viewAllFlag=&catalogId=33057&storeId=12556&productId=2375772&langId=-1&sort_field=Relevance&categoryId=208529&parent_categoryId=203984&pageSize=200&refinements=Price{2}~[5|35]

I’ve just ordered those in a size 6 to wear to the festival I’m going to at the end of July. I’m currently a size 10, so thats a month and two weeks to drop 2 dress sizes…

Now whenever I go to eat or think about not bothering with my exercise for the day, I’ll remember that;

a - I want to be skinny

b - I don’t want to waste my money on shorts I can’t fit into

c - I want to look hot at the festival and pull loads of hot guys and have an amazing time. 

My goal dress…. I want to wear this dress for my 25th birthday…. I have about 2 months

So, yesterday was my cheat day. I had posted that I was going to use my weigh-in yesterday morning as my weigh-in instead of today…well, I decided to do both but, I’m super bummed.

6/11/11 Weigh In: 268.2

6/12/11 Weigh In: 271.5

…Fml. I’m REALLY hoping it’s either my weight fluctuating or muscle or something. I’ve decided to go with the average, 269. I figure that’s a “fair” way to do it and try to not beat myself up about it. So:

Total Loss: 26 lbs

Total Loss this week: 1lb

:) My goal for next week is 3lbs. I know I can do it. I have to do it. Next week goal is: 266 lbs.

Break the fast right? I’ve been sleeping for the past 6-8 hours, sometimes only 4, oftentimes more like 10.  Either way, when I wake up, I’m ravenous.  I never understood people that don’t eat breakfast. It’s the most important meal of the day!

According to research, skipping meals, especially breakfast, can actually make weight control more difficult. Breakfast skippers tend to eat more food than usual at the next meal or nibble on high-calorie snacks to stave off hunger. Several studies suggest that people tend to accumulate more body fat when they eat fewer, larger meals than when they eat the same number of calories in smaller, more frequent meals.

I love breakfast food. Bacon, eggs, toast, waffles, pancakes, cereal, fruit.  I could eat every meal and have it be of the breakfast variety and not even be mad about it. In the words of Jade, I’m sorry I’m not sorry. You know what I like even more than breakfast food? Going out to eat breakfast food. Breakfast and brunch especially with buffets are my downfall.  There’s nothing like going to a place that will make an omelette right in front of me, exactly the way I want it. But since I don’t do that often, and will probably be doing it less, I had to make some changes at home. 

Thankfully, I live with my sister (Molly, amazinglyenough) who fancies herself the next Ina Garten (Barefoot Contessa). We try to eat a good breakfast balanced with protein, a little fat, carbohydrates and a ton of fruit as often as possible. On the weekends, I eat like a queen. During the week, I usually have a Jimmy Dean Delight breakfast sandwich (Points Plus = 7) and a banana. Generally, I’m eating in my car on the way to work, that’s me time, but I’m still eating it, and I encourage you to too!

For a long time I liked to kid myself into buying the sizes I felt comfortable purchasing. The thought of buying a Large bottom in shorts, bathing suits, skirts, etc scared me. I thought that if I’m so short and not that overweight I must fit into something smaller. I was so wrong.

All of my medium clothing used to “fit” me but I would have to pair it with exactly the right top/cover up so you wouldn’t be able to tell just how tight and improperly it fit me! Now all of those items fit me correctly and it is a world of a difference!

I just tried on some bathing suits for an upcoming trip and while I don’t love my body in a bathing suit (yet) I sure feel better in my suits than I used to. The bottoms no longer cut into my stomach and butt, they just rest on my skin the way they were intended to. The tops don’t fight a battle to keep my boobs up with the limited fabric provided, now my boobs actually fit into the tops I’ve purchased and I am comfortable and look better.

Moral of this run on sentence is none most of my clothing are not too big on me yet, I’m not going down a size, things aren’t falling off of me, but everything fits, everything I own now looks like it was made for me and not like I borrowed it from my niece and that is an amazing feeling :)

Great Workout TODAY!!

Sometimes I say let you take a break from YOU! Not for too long and not overboard, all the while knowing this is not reality…. I was really good on Friday. Then on Sat. night had a wedding I was conscience about what I was putting in my mouth the whole time, but let myself not worry too much.

I let myself have that 1 (only 1) little melted delicious brie cheese on a wheat cracker appetizer. Other normal food, yeah so I went over my calories for the day, but you know what I didn’t feel guilty or bad. I also let myself have some of the dessert. Then they were handing out amazing candy bags to every table (FYI- candy one of my BIG weaknesses - I’ve got a bad bad candy sweet tooth) I SAID NO! :) it’s all about making choices and not going overboard. I’m back on track again and going to go harder than before.

Sometimes it takes that mini vacation to light your fire again. :) Here’s to a great week everyone!!!

MORNING

2 granny smith apples with cinnamon 160 cal.
1 string cheese stick 80 cal.
1 pita with roasted red pepper hummus 100 cal.
1 Chocolate Raspberry Mouse Yogurt 160 cal.

NOON
1 string cheese stick 80 cal.
1 chicken, lettuce, and pepper sandwich 300 cal.

NIGHT
1 Bag Kettle Corn 80 cal.
Spaghetti with Turkey Meatballs 500 cal. 

TOTAL:
1460

WATER:

8 Cups

I’m getting up to the amount of calories I should be eating in a day, but after eating so little for so long, I’m starting to freak out about it. I’m worried I’ll gain all the weight I lost back, even though I’m eating so much better. I’ve just got to keep at it. 

So, after my mishap with boiling water two weekends ago, I haven’t been able to exercise....

Getting sexy boots that I can actually zip up. 

FTW. 

It’s the Apples & Oranges Cake Recipe!

This is the applesauce-based cake I’ve been writing about!  Okay, so the cake won’t look like that, but you’ll be alright with that difference in the end.  Trust me.
(Also, you can use whatever kind of cake you want.  Flavor-wise, yellow works best.  I used a sugar-free variety from Pillsbury, which cuts out about 10g of sugar per serving.) 

WHAT YOU’LL NEED:

FROSTING:

• 5.5 oz sugar free vanilla frosting (which is about 1.25 cups or so, but I just used a kitchen scale.  So 5.5oz)
• 3.5 oz fat free cream cheese
• 1/2 tbsp orange zest 
• The tiniest drop of orange flavoring. (A little goes a LONG way.  Try to pour as little as you can, and you’ll be fine)

CAKE:

• 1 box sugar free yellow cake mix
• 1 cup unsweetened applesauce
• 1 cup water

WHAT TO DO:

FROSTING:

1. In a small-medium bowl, blend together cream cheese and frosting with a hand mixer until uniform, about a minute on medium speed.
2. Blend in orange zest & flavor and continue to mix until zest is visibly evenly dispersed through frosting.
3. Chill this in your fridge until ready to frost.

CAKE:

1. Set oven to 350F
2. Blend together cake mix, apple sauce and water with that hand mixer until evenly mixed.
3. Coat a baking pan of your choice with non-stick spray.  (I used a huge pan so I could get lots of slices out of a really shallow cake.  I don’t know the dimensions, but it was definitely bigger than 13”x9”.  I’d go for a pan you can get more slices out of like that, but what you use is up to you.  Keep in mind, more slices = less calories and such per slice, but just as satisfying.)
4. Pour batter into pan and pop in the oven, following the baking time instructions from the cake box for your pan of choice.  I baked my huge pan of cake for 15 minutes, turn, 15 more minutes.
5. Once fully cooked & out of the oven, allow the cake to cool to a reasonable temperature before frosting it.
6. Frost it.
7. Cut it.
8. Eat it.

I did have a little bit of difficulty with the cake sticking to my knife when I was cutting it, just because the cake is so moist.  But if that happens to you, simply clean off the knife between each cut and you should be fine.  It’ll be worth it!

(NUTRITIONAL FACTS, for 1/24 recipe:  89 calories, 3g fat, 20g carbs, 1g sugar, 1g fiber, 1g protein)

And I wasted 6 points on it.

That is all.

i love the feeling of having to piece another hole into my leather belt to make it smaller.

so good.

I basically got my butt on my normal crossramp like i typically do.. but today i played with the buttons!!

Instead of staying at one incline and one speed and one resistance the whole time.. I went from my normal incline (9) up to the top (16) and I got my resistance to 6 instead of staying at 2.. and i would go super fast for a couple minutes at a time!!

I typically burn about 300cals.. Today I burnt 540Cals!!!!

I WAS SUPER EXCITED AND MY LEGS ARE WORE OUT!

My low weight is still 205.2 but i have a feeling im gonna break that tomorrow!!!

I have green tea every night. Actually, I pretty much have tea...

I thought there was no downside to the HCG diet - other than my dwindling social life. (No brunch gorging! No lunch gorging! No dinner gorging! No alcohol binging!) But alas, I just found one: increased sensitivity to PAIN.

I have no clue why this is, but let me tell you: I just came back from my monthly laser hair removal appointment* and literally came out shaking. I was yelping throughout the entire procedure, and my eyes welled up with tears several times. They had to give me an ice pack and a stress ball, y’all.

It’s been an hour and I still have a huge knot in my chest from the anxiety. Holy SHIT, that hurt. I mean, it probably didn’t help that I chose to laser a few “particularly sensitive” areas. But I’ve done this MANY times before and NEVER experienced pain like this. Well… lesson learned. No laser until after the HCG has cycled out of my system.

*Laser hair removal is my vice. It’s kind of addictive. If I could afford to laser myself from the eyebrows down, I’d do it…

Oh my goodness, those .4 lbs to go until I hit my 1st GW is going to cause the death of me. Looking forward to my weigh-in Friday(: Could it be possible for me to get out of the 190s by then?? Ahh! I’m so excited xD

let me know how I can support you! Maybe a text once in a while or you need an ear, just tell me!

Sooooooooo yeah, its the middle of June and I haven’t even broken 175 yet………………………………………………………………………………………


F!

I seriously need to get back on track. I was doing really well, but its almost compulsive how I feel like I HAVE to eat as soon as I get home from being anywhere. Its frustrating. When I eat I just look at the food like, “why are you in front of me, why don’t you taste as good as I thought you would, and why am I still eating?”

I’ve been feeling really weak and overwhelmed. I’m never going to reach my goals at this point =s

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Trying my hand at video blogging because sometimes it’s easier to talk than type! :)

Starting Weight: 195

Last Week: 193

This Week: 193

Difference: 0 lbs.

Total Difference: -2 lbs.

Ugh, not sure why I haven’t lost any weight this week, I know I might not lose a lot of weight doing 30 Day Shred but I’ve been eating much better so I figured that might do something. Hmmmm, I don’t know.

They don’t wobble when I flick ‘em :D

I have worked so hard-nothing will take my eyes off the prize. Popcorn slathered in fake butter at the movies? No thanks, I’ve got a healthier alternative. Soda? Nope, I’ll take water. The world is beautiful, the sun is shining, and I deserve to enjoy it. I deserve to enjoy it how I want to-healthy, happy and confident. 

I have green tea every night. Actually, I pretty much have tea at least once everyday, but sometimes it’s like I can’t sleep if I don’t have green tea before I go to bed. My boyfriend said I’ve conditioned myself this way.

It started out near the end of my freshman year in uni. I’ve mentioned this many times before, and to put it bluntly - I gained a lot of weight. I hit the Freshman Fifteen, you could say. I read somewhere that green tea burns fat and boosts metabolism blahblahblah, so like any girl going through the tortures of weight loss, I wanted to try any (healthy) way to shed the pounds faster. Haha! So I tried it. Did I feel the effects? Not really sure, but I liked thinking the warm tea in my tummy was melting all the fats. HAHAHA!

I’ve lost the weight since then (took about half a year) but now it’s like my night is not complete if I don’t have green tea and my body won’t allow me to sleep!

Running hard or hardly running?

That run was hard. Not really hard, not as hard as some I’ve done before, but harder than I was expecting it to be. Especially because it was just treadmill intervals of 3:00/2:00 and 2:00/3:00 at incline of 3-4. So the longest period I was actually running was three minutes! That’s so weak for me! It’s nothing compared to the 10:00 or the 20:00 I held out last week.

Part was my lack of running over the last few days, but that’s a pretty drastic drop in stamina for me. My allergies aren’t that bad really, but I did have a lot of congestion or something going on today and I had to keep clearing my throat, most of the time I couldn’t get it clear enough. I normally bulk up on water before and after running rather than during, but I’ll bring water next time to help with this.

I’ve also been coughing a lot more than usual over the last week or two. Which is an odd coincidence with the fact that this past weekend I got the notice saying that I have to go have my follow-up TB test since I was exposed a few months ago. I’m getting tired of all these TB tests though, I mean it’s only three so far but I’ll have to get one when I get back from Europe in December too. Oh well. So long as I don’t have it. :P

BUT all that aside, all I can do is run again tomorrow and hope it’s better than today.

Now I’m going to go swim, or something. :P

Off to run.

Because I need to. Because waiting is so yesterday. Because excuses are worthless and pointless and get me nowhere. Because of that feeling I get afterwards. Because I haven’t in two days. Because something needs to change and running can change it. Because somebody else, less fit than me, is doing it right now. Because my body deserves it. Because some people think I can’t. Because I can.

No excuses. Play like the BIGGEST LOSER.

No excuses, play like a champion  The Biggest Loser.

My mom is overweight, and I’ve officially eaten myself to obesity with gaining the freshman fifteen twice in college.. So we usually jog .1 mile, power walk .1 mile, and switch off that way for usually 4 miles. We stop to do lunges and push ups every .5 miles. It’s embarrassing how quickly my heart rate jacks up to the 185 danger zone.. So we do what we can every day, put in at least an hour and a half.. Some days we walk more than we jog and some days we are surprised by how much we can jog. We are just hoping to get stronger every day..

But the last few days my mom and I had been slacking off with our jogs. Especially Friday… I just felt dizzy and like fainting every time I picked up my pace to a jog. So instead of our usual walk/jog routine, we decided to just walk 7.5 miles. It was miserable. I pushed myself so hard just to walk that distance.

Then I realized what the problem was… I wasn’t eating enough. Could you believe it!? I don’t think I was reaching the necessary minimum 1200 calories a day. And I definitely wasn’t getting the protein and whole grains I needed. A working body needs its nutrients! Today, I made sure to eat better, and we continued on with our routine.

We’re starting kickboxing soon! I can’t wait. I’m so excited. I have been watching The Biggest Loser these last few days (my first time watching the show!) and the new trainers they brought into the show are using boxing to train their team. It seems like exactly what I need. Because weight loss is 90% changing your mind. And boxing trains your mind to be a fighter. Granted, Tiger Schulmann’s kickboxing instructors aren’t going to scream at my face to toughen up and punch harder.. But I kept picturing The Biggest Loser’s trainers in my head as I jogged today….

How many!? Three. How many!? Two. How many?! One! This show made me realize that our bodies can do a LOT more than we believe. “I can’t” is just our fear. If we love ourselves, we need to give our bodies the treat of accomplishing amazing things. If those 300 pound people can get into that gym on their first day and be pushed that far, I can definitely work harder than I have been. No excuses, because the only thing excuses result in is holding us back from our health and happiness.

(11/100)

Okay, today wasn’t a good day for me. My Mum bought some new scales because the ones we had were old anyway. I stepped on them and …. pretty much the same reading as the old scales. Meaning the scales at my Dad’s house haven’t been completely honest with me and I am quite a bit heavier then I thought I was.

I felt like crying, 5 days ago I thought I was at 174lbs, turns out I’m at about 180lb, that is about half a stone that has just been given back to me. It’s a bit of a slap in the face. So that’s another 6lbs to lose… I guess it explains why I haven’t noticed a difference in my body, I haven’t lost the stone I thought I had. It feels like I have to lose all that weight again, but really I didn’t lose it in the first place.

I’m angry at myself and I don’t know why, because it is not my fault, just a mistake with the different scales.

I will weigh myself tomorrow morning and start from there.

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I ate well today 1300 calories I think, all good foods, I have had 3.5 litres of water today and I have done lots of revision. ( I have completed day one of my Perfect Week, only 6 days to go)

I did the last day of Week 2 of C25K today and am quite scared for what Week 3 will be like. I also did the first day of level 2 of the 30 day shred today …. It was horrendous! I had to take quite a few breaks (not long ones) and I had to do the easy versions of them all. I don’t particularly want to do that again, but I’m going to have to, uhhh I know it will get easier but at the moment I can’t see that happening.

Tomorrow is my day off from the 30 day shred, and my C25K didn’t fall on Sunday this week so I have a rest day.