Random Musing: My Quarterlife Crisis

Lately I have been dreading awakening and starting my day. It's the same routine: work, home or work, church. No variations, nothing exciting and interesting. I don't compare my life to others; I just think about where I could be if I buckle down and get serious.  Even working on my portfolio for design school has been a nightmare. I have no inspiration! After praying and thinking things over I realized what my problem is: I'm having a Quarterlife Crisis. I'm 25 years old (will be 26 in 1 month), I have a job but not a career, I'm single with friends who are all either married or engaged and I don't do anything for fun anymore. So, I am determined to make changes for the better. I'm trying to figure out what to do to get some inspiration for my portfolio asap since the deadline for early admission is in one month, I am trying to learn more about myself and what truly makes me happy, sad, etc. and I'm opening up my circle of friends. Most importantly, I'm working on my relationship with the Lord. I will know more about myself once I know more about Him. It's so funny how once I start to feel disconnected from Him, I start to feel disconnected from myself. It's like a relationship; when you haven't seen your boyfriend/girlfriend in a while you feel it. I want my next year to be blessed and led completely by God........be blessed.

I Need You, I Need You, I Need You.....

That Jars of Clay song popped into my head today. I find myself constantly fighting the same situation and coming up with the same conclusion: It’s not my battle, but God’s battle. The sooner I realize that the sooner I can be blessed and unstressed. Being 25 isn’t easy; actually it’s harder than being 24. I only say this because I decided I will leave certain things in the past and keeping it there is a lot easier than just saying it. But to God be the glory. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength (I paraphrased that a little bit, lol). Be blessed.

Thanks to All My Friends & Family!!!!

The dinner was so much fun! Even though we were all on our best behavior; I truly enjoyed myself. The dinner was at the Riverview restaurant in Long Island City by the East River. It was freezing! But I had a great time. To be surrounded by friends and love ones who I can have been there for me through it all was truly humbling. Here are some pics. I have church in the morning, so talk to you later.

Happy Quarterlife to Me!

It’s my Birthday!!!!!!! I am so excited and sooo blessed! I thank You Lord for allowing me to see another day and another year. I also thank all my friends and family who continued to keep me in my prayers; and those who prayed for me when I didn’t even know they were doing so. I feel so humble and so grateful that God has allowed me of all people to see another day; another year. I am forever grateful and in awe of His mercies and grace. I thank God for allowing me to se 25 years, and if it be His will 75 more! Lol. I close chapters and leave the past in the past. I move forward; there’s no looking back. I played Damita Haddon’s song “No Looking Back” this morning on my way to work. It really speaks to me. The song goes like this: “I am leaving this place now; letting go of all my fears, saying good-bye to the memory I hold dear. I can finally breathe again; it’s a new day fair well past, as I close this chapter I set free at last- I made up my mind, there’s no turning back. The past is behind me, there’s no looking back. I’m looking forward not behind; I’ve made a decision, I give you my life. - Every step I take is new. I found courage to go on; though it’s rough sometime I still have to be strong. I may have to walk alone, but the One who lives inside me is always there to comfort and to guide…..” I love this song! Lol. I am truly blessed!

One Day Away!!!!!!!

Tomorrow’s my 25th Birthday! I am sooo excited! I have my dress, looking for my shoes; confirm the reservations at the restaurant, etc, etc, etc. I am just looking forward to seeing a new year! I have learned to take nothing for granted; tomorrow id promised to no one. I have a lot of growing and learning to do and I ask God to lead me every step of the way. Pray for me and be blessed!

Measured and Found Lacking....

I haven’t blogged for a whole month! I am sooooo sorry! I am going to keep you up to date:

This month was our 32nd Church Convention (October 11th-18th, 2009). The theme was: “Stir Up the Gifts that is Within You” from 2 Timothy 1:6. It was an awesome week! The week before was praying and then I had to prepare our church newsletter/magazine called “Endeavor” for it. I have been so busy with it that I barely had any sleep.

My birthday dinner is at the Riverview in Long Island City, Queens. The guest list started out at 30 but now might be around 17-20. I would like for it to be an intimate affair but we’ll see. While I’m on the topic of the birthday dinner, a certain someone maybe a no show. But the dinner isn’t for him, it’s for me. You don’t turn 25 everyday.


My dress!!!!!! Where do I begin? I didn’t get in contact with my dress maker so I will have to buy a dress; the problem is that I don’t see any dresses that I like! Oh woe is me! I did see this awesome dress at H&M but we’ll see.

Dance- I am so humble and blessed that the Lord has allowed me to lead the Dance Ministry at my church. The vision has grown and I will be supervising 3 dance ministries. God is so good! I went to a Praise Dance Seminar today and was so blessed! I am so excited for the next chapter.

My relationship- My relationship with God is showing me that I could be sooo much further but I am holding myself back. I have found lacking and it’s time to get to work. I realize that we as Christians are always silent while other groups shout their beliefs and lifestyles from the hilltops; it’s time to stand unashamed!
There are areas that I am lacking in but I learned in my weakness His strength is shown.


My 25th Year a.k.a My Quarterlife- I am determined to end ties, and severe things in my life that are not of God and hinder my growth. It’s time to stand and stand for all to see. I have to make sure my lifestyle echos my words. It’s a new season; there’s no turning back. Also, I am back in Bible School! I started General Bible Survey 1. It’s a lot of work!

I hope that you guys have been blessed; I apologize for such a gap in my blogging. There has been so much on my plate lately. Be blessed.

Throwing Me For A Loop

I don’t know anymore. I get content with one thing and next thing you know; it changes. I really think God has a really weird sense of humor sometimes. I think He just looks down and entertains Himself with us sometimes. Seriously, I don’t think that but it feels like it occasionally. I am going Wednesday to check out Brasserie 44, View in Times Square Marriot Marquise, JoJo, and Montenapo. I am so excited. I am going to be 25! I am so blessed! God is so good and I feel like I am constantly saying that but it’s true.

I Found Them!

After centuries of looking and waiting………..lol, not really but it feels like it. I found my birthday shoes! They are the coolest, most awesomest (not a word, I know), sexiest shoes I’ve seen in a long time; and they called out to me! I was googling shoes with studs on them because I’m going for a rocker meets couture look (I’m designing my own dress); I saw the shoes and the rest is history…….They’re black leather studded round toe pumps by Dolce Vita. They’re only $225 so my mother won’t complain she’s getting faint when I mention the price. Fashionable and affordable; what more could a girl want?

So Much Work, So Little Time.....

So……I’m designing my dress for my birthday! Very, very excited about that! And the color scheme is Black & Silver. Originally I wanted Navy and Green because I love peacock feathers but my Youth Vice President pointed out that Silver represents 25 years (normally in anniversaries) so I changed the colors. I am checking out Brasserie 44 in Midtown as the spot to have the dinner. It is so awesome there! My main problem now is to create a guest list and figure out how to make sure I can get a place that’s not too pricey. Pray that I’m successful.

Pouting!

I’m back at work and so extremely tired. I don’t know why I didn’t take this day off as well. No point crying over spilt milk anyway. I still have a buzz from Elevate; I love it. I won’t compromise it for anything. My ex called me last night and pretty much talked about nothing at all (why am I not surprised). I feel the release, I don’t care for him like I used to; I hope he receives Christ though. Sigh…….Talk to you later; I have to plan my 25th Birthday Celebration! I’m sooooo excited!

Prep Time!

I’m counting down until my B-Day! I want to go to the opera or see a ballet then go out to eat. I don’t want too many people there; just my friends from because I want clean, wholesome fun! I am designing my dress and setting a color scheme! I am also looking into restaurants and shows on Broadway. I’m so excited!