Absence Has Made My Heart Grow Fonder.....

I am a horrible blogger; I admit it. I have been so busy and neglected you. So, let me update you. We just had our Youth Convention. The theme was "Experience the Glory" and boy did we. It was absolutely amazing!!!!! My cousin entered courtship and I'm counting down the days until she walks down the altar. So, that leaves me as the token single girl in the bunch now. This basically translates to avoid ALL events where it will be a couples thing instead of friends hanging out ( I discovered that people in relationships are always trying to hook up their poor single friend, lol), seek out my single SAVED friends and start hanging out more often (this means the friends who love the season of singlehood they are in; not  the ones counting down the minutes, seconds, and milliseconds until they are in courtship), and enjoy this time to myself to work on anything I want. I am going to try to blog on a regular basis.......

You Melt My Heart to Stone

I found myself singing "Melt My Heart to Stone" by Adele unaware at work today. I saw her live a while ago we she was in New York (she was a well kept secret then) and was amazed by how she sang that song with all her heart. You could tell she was singing the song from experience. It had me thinking: why do we do this to ourselves? Why are we so impatient to let someone in only to have them do what they want and leave without warning? It's like we prepare a wonderful feast just for them, invite them, only to have them behave how they want and leave without even a "thank you". What makes it even worst is after we get hurt we put a shield or a defense and make ourselves unreachable to the One God has chosen for us. I think it's because the first (or second or third) time we love, we love with all our hearts and we get burned. We become so guarded that the Right one has to go through some serious hurdles just to get our attention. I started thinking about this as my godmother was telling a tale about this female eagle that made a group of male eagles go through a series of tests. She told me the female eagle would pick up sticks and start to fly, she would be persued by male eagles interested in mating with her. When she gets to a certain height, she would drop the sticks and they would have to catch it. This would continue; she would fly higher and carry a heavier sticks each time. She would keep going as some of the male eagles would get tired and give up. Finally one male eagle would keep going; and she decides she will mate with him. Later they have offsprings. When its time to teach them to fly, the mom would push the offsprings out of the nest and if they don't fly the male has to catch them. She made him go through all that so would know he could handle the situation later. I thought that was the coolest story I ever heard. If we enter into courtship knowing what the person can handle before hand we won't have any surprises later.

The List

If any of you read "And the Bride Wore White" by Dannah Gresh; you know about: The List. The list is a brunch of traits and/or characteristics that you want in your future spouse spiritually, physically, mentally and emotionally from the Lord. I remember when I had to do this I panicked. I kept thinking "What if the guy God has for me is nothing on this list?" It took me forever but I finally did it and stuck by my list. It's almost been a year and I have no interest in reading my list. I will finally review my list before I enter courtship to see if he matches the list. I realize I have been talking about relationships because that's all my friends have been talking about it! Anywho, I just fell in love with 2 colognes: L'Homme by Yves Saint Laurent and Hugo Element by Hugo Boss. They can't rival my all time fav: Armani Code for Men. It smells like a dream. I have a weird memory when it comes to scents. I can easily remember what they smell like verses what they wore. SMH, don't ask. Maybe I should add those colognes to my list; you never know.

Matching Outfits?

Happy Presidents Day! I am only saying this because I finally have a day off from work! THANK YOU JESUS! I was planning to go to the city and look for a dress for Saturday. My friends church is having a Youth Dinner, so I need a dress. Well, I don't need one but since I gave up shopping as part of my Daniel's fast I wanted to be in the stores badly. I need a fix, lol. My church went into a Daniel's fast for 21 days. From 6:00 am until 6:00 pm we refrained from food and sought the Lord. After 6:00, we were only allowed to have fruits and vegetables. It was easy except for the no caffeine and sugar part. My first week without coffee, I thought I would pass out! I decided to further sacrifice (I needed a serious breakthrough), I gave up shopping (its like breathing for me, lol) and wikipedia. Wikipedia, you ask? Yup, I read this website everyday! I love it, I learn something new everyday. if you haven't caught on yet, I am an absolute nerd. But I digress, I ended up staying home until the afternoon, I went to my cousins' job so we could go to the mall afterwards to dress shop ( I was desperate). It was there when my she revealed to me that she and her new boyfriend were going to do the unthinkable: wear matching outfits! I thought I was hearing things. My cousin is so anti-romantic I sometimes think she's a guy. But now that's she has entered courtship she has turned into a pile of gushing, always smiling, giggling, constantly talking about him GIRL! SMH, and I though she was family. I hope this doesn't catch, lol. This is 3 out of 4. I am all that's left in the single pond. I absolutely love it. But now that one wedding is months away, the next is planning hers and my cousin is now in courtship, I realize that girls nights out, group outings will now become double dating and couples outings. So now with this youth dinner looming on the horizon, and the reminder that the tickets sell as "single" and "couples" I cling to my identity as a "single" by a thread. I love the fact that I am in this stage of building and polishing but I think I am going to need new friends, lol. Who likes being a 7th wheel during bowling, movie nights, and at dinner outings anyway?