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It has been too long, I know. I was really thinking lately about going forward as a blogger in a sea of bloggers that all want to be a celeb or something..... I came at a conclusion recently: I will continue. I am at a point in my life where I rather share it so others can relate to it and know that they are not alone in their walk.

I have had the pleasure of fellowshipping with NYU's Set Apart Ministry for the past 3 months and have to say that I've been blessed. I'm so sad that it has come to an end, but I have been blessed with wonderful and crazy friends.

Update: I am still sticking to my single for 1 year decision; believe me it has NOT been easy. The fun part is telling people that you actually want to be single and watch their reaction, lol. There are days when I miss being in a relationship but I rather enjoy my season of singleness now so I can appreciate my next season when it comes.

P.S.- Scott Pilgrim .vs. the World is an awesome movie! I am so getting the DVD when it comes out!

All This & Heaven Too!

Elevate was an absolutely amazing experience! I feel amazing! It’s not the amazing high that will wear off but the feeling that my life will never and can never be the same. I know that some things and situations will not change overnight but I do know it takes time and it’s a process. I can tell you this: the process has already begun!

Is He Not Strong Enough?

I never want to be in a position where I doubt my God and want He can do. I know God is a God who can do ANYTHING! There is no limit to what, when and how He can do it. I’m a little tired, I got in at 2:30 am and then went to sleep only to get up at 8:00 and get ready for Elevate today. We got off to a bumpy start; My Youth President Duanne was mad at the boys (Danny, Yardley and Craig) for taking their time and making us later (later being that Duanne made us late to begin with, lol) than we already were. I have bags of clothes for a 3 day retreat! It’s so bad, I feel like such a chick! Any who; the pastor that is speaking is named Kyle Rodgers. He’s an on fire, anointed man of God. Did I mention that he’s 25? Lol. It makes it even better because he’s ministering about what he’s dealing with now. He touched on the topic of being in a relationship even if you know that’s not who God has for you…..no comment. I’m believing God for an awesome move and change on behalf of the Youth.

Discourage Much?

I had a discussion with my Youth Minister today and I realized how much I’ve grown. My initial response if I was younger would have been to yell and withdraw; now I take it in and learn from it. I was told that my heart didn’t seem in the ministry. I tell you that I actually tried not to laugh. I love being apart of the Youth President; but I have learned that it’s God that is seeing my work and knows my heart. So it doesn’t matter if someone doesn’t think my heart is in it or not; it’s what God knows. I want to tell you not to let people discourage you but encourage YOURSELF in the Lord. Be blessed.

Why Did You Doubt?

I don’t know if I told you guys before, but when I did my Daniel fast we would have prayer sessions after service on Sundays. LOL, I think its funny looking back because I never pegged myself as a prayer warrior but to have someone ask you to pray on their behalf is an honor. Any who, back to the story: Our former Youth President was asked to pray over us that day. I will always remember his prayer. He prayed that I would be a Peter. I remember not fully understanding why throughout the prayer he compared me to him but I asked God to reveal the purpose of it. So fast forward to today; I was reading my copy of Our Daily Bread and the scripture verse was the story of Peter and Jesus walking on water. I stopped literally on Matthew 14:31 (Amplified Bible) “Instantly Jesus reached out His hand and caught and held him, saying to him, O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” I have to say that verse was talking to me. I know what God can do, especially what He can do in my life. I am always the one who wants to jump out of the ship and meet Him even in the craziest circumstances but when I look around that’s when I doubt. If we just keep our eyes on Him in the midst on the winds and currents we can walk right up to Him. He won’t let us sink, so why are we full of doubt?

In A Few Hours...

I have will have a half day at work. I am so anxious to get to bed and sleep. I found out that I have to deliver 2 sermons: 1 on Friday and 1 on Sunday. They’ll be both on Evangelism. Since I went to Bible School and graduated from that class, they felt I could speak about it. I don’t feel pressured, I just always feel unworthy to be a mouthpiece for the Lord, but to God be the glory. I hope that the Youth learn something that they will be able to take with them.

Welcome to the Family!

Yesterday was my friend Black 20th Birthday. We (the Youth in the 18-25 group) went over and made jokes, listened to music and played video games all night! I am extremely tired. It made me feel good to know that he is comfortable with us. He just joined our Youth Ministry earlier this year and you can see God is moving all over him. I thank God for His mercy and grace, He embraced us with arms wide open (I feel like singing the Creed song now, lol) and we began family as soon as we opened our hearts to Him.

Last Minute Prepping

Today consists of sorting laundry, food shopping for the next two weeks, and a hair appointment. I realized that I am one of those demented people who like to actually be busy (I know, I’m neurotic). I am looking forward to tomorrow, I will be going to the Bridal Expo with my girlfriend’s (I have one friend getting married in August, the other next September) and I will actually enjoy myself. Today in Youth Service we talked about Evangelism. Over the next couple of months, we will be evangelizing in different locations in Brooklyn. We will also have a couple of Outreach services where we have service outside of our church. We decided to make things interesting and do one night for girls and one for the guys. I can’t wait to see what they have to offer.

Let's Give Them Something to Talk About

Today was Shepherd’s House Open Bible (Queens, NY) Church Youth Campaign. Can you say amazing? Lol, the message was an awesome one. The minister talked about how you can’t just show up at something (a promise, a place that God has called you to be at) and think it’s enough; you have to take authority! I was in awe as he broke it down for us. I think its so cool how you can read the word over and over and come away from it with a new revelation each time. There are a lot of things and situations that the Lord has made available to me and called me to that I need to step to and take authority of. If I don’t, someone else might move in because I didn’t speak up. So I’m going to take a stand.

Where Do We Begin?

Last night, we had our monthly Youth Meeting. This involves the leaders and staff in the Youth Ministry (Youth President, Vice President, secretaries) and those who deal with the youth on a regular basis. We were faced with a difficult question: how to reach those in our ministry? Our problem area seems to be our high school students. I know why, they are at an age where they are curious and don't want to stick to one thing; but to be involved in everything! The youth these days have it a lot harder than those who were their age decades before them. A lot of them come from broken homes, single parent households, the ghetto, and are dealing with drugs, sex, gangs, gay & lesbian issues, etc. The only way to able to reach them is to tackle them one by one. We have to address each person so we can figure out how to reach them. We can't put them in a group because each child is different. I have the blessing and the curse of being close to the age group that we're targeting. The blessing: being able to know what they are going through. The curse: Having to sign up for unlimited texting so I don't put my phone bill through the roof, lol. But seriously, I know how hard our work is going to be for us but with the strength that only God can give, we will be able to lead them all in the right direction.