What Can I Say?

This weekend has been an experience. I went to the mountain and came back with a determination to live a life that represents Christ in all aspects. It is so amazing that I used to think that I was experiencing God only to have Him show me that what I was experiencing was nothing compared to what I can experience now. There are higher levels to experience in Him! I am humbled that He would love someone like me....I have made up my mind, there's no turning back.

Going Through the Motions & Giving My All

This might hurt, it's not safe

But I know that I've gotta make a change

I don't care if I break,

At least I'll be feeling something

'Cause just okay is not enough

Help me fight through the nothingness of life

I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,

"What if I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

No regrets, not this time

I'm gonna let my heart defeat my mind

Let Your love make me whole

I think I'm finally feeling something

'Cause just okay is not enough

Help me fight through the nothingness of this life

'Cause I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,

"What if I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

take me all the way (take me all the way)

take me all the way ('cause I don't wanna go through the motions)

take me all the way (I know I'm finally feeling something real)

take me all the way

I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,

"What if I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,

"What if I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

take me all the way (take me all the way)

take me all the way (I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go)

take me all the way (through the motions)

take me all the way

I don't wanna go through the motions

This song has been heavily on my mind today. This Thursday, my sister and I will leave to go on a retreat in Upstate New York. It isn't like those Youth retreats I usually go on; this will be a life changing, higher level in Christ, leaving a totally different way retreat. I'm excited and at the same time I'm nervous. The bible verses I've come across lately are all about giving my all:

"And he answered, ^'You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.'" Luke 10:27

"You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:13

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding." Proverbs 3:5

"And if you will indeed obey my commandments that I command you today, to love the LORD your God, and to serve him with all your heart and with all your soul." Deuteronomy 11:13

"Only fear the LORD and serve him faithfully with all your heart. For consider what great things he has done for you." 1 Samuel 12:24

What does giving your all look like these days? And how do we make sure we're not going through the motions just so people won't know or suspect something is wrong? I don't know about you, but I desire a higher level in Christ. Let me rephrase that: I don't desire a higher level, I NEED a higher level. I can't go on in this society and in this time with a lackluster anointing. I need to be empowered, recharged, I need that coming from the mountain glowing because I had a serious encounter with God experience. The one that doesn't fade a week after but leaves me hungry and thirsty for more of Him. I have been asking God to show me how to live a life that is totally surrendered to Him; not just feel the way people say I should be feel a total and complete change....I feel He will have an answer for me on the retreat. Be blessed.

It's A New Season Coming to Me!

I am not going to mention the ungodly hour that I am up today but I feel like it’s a new season for me. Everything is going to change for the better; for my good and I’m moving to a higher level in Christ. I am not perfect, no where even remotely near good but I am grateful that the Lord is moving in my life and on my behalf. I am so excited! I can’t wait to see what God has in store for me.

Goodbye and Good Riddance!

There comes a point in your life when you have to let something go to gain something. Will you let it go willingly or will you hold on to it until its too much to bear and you lose it anyway. I remember when the Lord called me out of my relationship. It was the hardest thing I had to do. I was craving more of the Lord and he wanted me to walk away from a 3 year relationship that wasn't uplifting God at all. At first, I was putting up a fight but than I realized God was more important and there was something better He had for me. So I walked away and the Lord brought to another level in Him that completely blew my mind and made it worth it all. So I ask you a question: Is there something that you are holding on to that is the same thing God wants you to let go of? Will you do it or let it be your god? Pray about it.