Going Through the Motions & Giving My All

This might hurt, it's not safe

But I know that I've gotta make a change

I don't care if I break,

At least I'll be feeling something

'Cause just okay is not enough

Help me fight through the nothingness of life

I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,

"What if I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

No regrets, not this time

I'm gonna let my heart defeat my mind

Let Your love make me whole

I think I'm finally feeling something

'Cause just okay is not enough

Help me fight through the nothingness of this life

'Cause I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,

"What if I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

take me all the way (take me all the way)

take me all the way ('cause I don't wanna go through the motions)

take me all the way (I know I'm finally feeling something real)

take me all the way

I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,

"What if I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,

"What if I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

take me all the way (take me all the way)

take me all the way (I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go)

take me all the way (through the motions)

take me all the way

I don't wanna go through the motions

This song has been heavily on my mind today. This Thursday, my sister and I will leave to go on a retreat in Upstate New York. It isn't like those Youth retreats I usually go on; this will be a life changing, higher level in Christ, leaving a totally different way retreat. I'm excited and at the same time I'm nervous. The bible verses I've come across lately are all about giving my all:

"And he answered, ^'You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.'" Luke 10:27

"You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:13

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding." Proverbs 3:5

"And if you will indeed obey my commandments that I command you today, to love the LORD your God, and to serve him with all your heart and with all your soul." Deuteronomy 11:13

"Only fear the LORD and serve him faithfully with all your heart. For consider what great things he has done for you." 1 Samuel 12:24

What does giving your all look like these days? And how do we make sure we're not going through the motions just so people won't know or suspect something is wrong? I don't know about you, but I desire a higher level in Christ. Let me rephrase that: I don't desire a higher level, I NEED a higher level. I can't go on in this society and in this time with a lackluster anointing. I need to be empowered, recharged, I need that coming from the mountain glowing because I had a serious encounter with God experience. The one that doesn't fade a week after but leaves me hungry and thirsty for more of Him. I have been asking God to show me how to live a life that is totally surrendered to Him; not just feel the way people say I should be feel a total and complete change....I feel He will have an answer for me on the retreat. Be blessed.

My Top 10 Fav Songs- March 2009

Lately there have been some songs constantly on my replay list. Some are old, while some are fairly new. Here they go:

1. Beautiful Love- The Afters
I am a sap for this song. I have never heard a Christian love song that makes me want to play it over and over without feeling mushy. Everytime I hear it, it brings a smile to my face.

2. Miracle- The Elms
This song reminds me of the old school rock music that makes you want to go to their concert with and get the band tees. The song is such a simple concept that speaks volumes.


3. Decode- Paramore
Don't really need a reason for why they're on my playlist. It's Paramore, I love this band! The song makes me think over my past relationship every time I hear it but the song overall is hot. It's also on the Twilight Soundtrack (personally picked by Stephenie Moore).

4. I Need You- Jars of Clay
If you NEVER heard this song before, you need to! I absolutely love it! It's so catchy and it's a declaration that we need Jesus as our Lord and Savior in our life.

5. All I Need (Acoustic)- Bethany Dillon
This song is amazing. I can't really find the words to describe it. The song says everything we need to say to the Lord; in the midst of everything, when we are alone, He's all we need.

6. Say the Words (Now)- DC Talk
If a DC Talk song wasn't on my list, I would be shocked. The band is aweome! This song is aweome! It could just be my opinion because I am a die-hard DC Talk fan! They need to do a reunion tour ASAP! The song talks about saying "I love you" when you need to say it.

7. In Such A State- Edison Glass
They're one of the new bands I just discovered. They sound like Christian Power Rock. This song is another one of those songs that just express where we are and where we need Him to be: in our hearts.

8. Opposite Way- Leeland
Leeland is one of my favorite worship bands. They actually minister to you in song. They have a way of making you want to go into worship when listening to them. This song makes you feel empowered about being set apart, for going in the opposite direction then the world.

9. Something to Say- Matthew West
This is one of the coolest songs I have heard in a long time. It makes me think of "Live Out Loud" by Steven Curtis Chapman. Everytime I hear this song I feel like climbing to the top of a roof to scream something; anything.

10. Alive- P.O.D.
This is a personal song for me. After I survived a traumatic experience, this became my theme song. You don't realize how alive you feel until something happens and puts everything into perspective.

Let's see what will be my soundtrack for next month.