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for the past week it’s been so bad. :( i’m so upset at myself. and there’s no one i can tell to make it feel better… well, except tumblr of course. okay, i’m gonna go on a super strict diet starting from tomorrow. and exercise as frequently as i can.

sometimes i hate having a full day internship + summer classes. it’s so difficult to find time for myself. i hate being a student. :(

This one’s really good (y)

Breakfast:

Small bowl of porridge with 4 strawberries (120)

Lunch:

Pret Salmon and avocado salad without dressing (400)

Tea:

Jacket potato with 2 seafood sticks, half an avocado and a little cheese /with salad leaves (420)

Snacks:

100g dried mango (300)

Calipo ice lolly (100)

1 rice cracker (10)

Total approx: 1350

FIRST WEIGH IN TOMORROW, I DON’T THINK I WILL HAVE LOST ANYTHING BUT FINGERS CROSSED.

i went to the doctors the other day because they think i have mono and i havent had an appetite lately, im 125lbs now and i was pushing 140 something during the winter.

is it sad that i hope i have mono, because its made me lose weight?

Yes.

Right now. Its never to late.

I have a date tonight.

dear followers, please read.

heard this awful story in a speech we watched in health today.

this girl had a boyfriend that told her that her butt was too big. time went on, you know the tale, she became bulimic. well, her parents put her in treatment, against her will. she was not compliant, and was kicked out. her therapists told her to come back when she wanted to get better. it never happened - she drove out to the river, poured gasoline over herself, and lit herself on fire.

dear followers: i’m not telling you stop being bulimic/anorexic right now. but i’m asking you to think. please, please never let yourself become this way. i want you to know that i will care, and it will directly affect me if you ever ever even try to do something like that to yourself.

i know. i’ve felt that way too and yes, i’ve attempted suicide (epic fail, but that’s another story that you can ask to hear by leaving me a message in my ask box). in any case, help is possible. now is the time to figure out if you are willing to change when the time comes. 

you may have to wait. but please, never wait so long that you do anything like that to yourself.

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so I’ve lost internet at my house and can only update via my phone this sucks a lot because I can’t change anything on my actual blog so here’s an update on my progress.